The Elephant in the Room

I had a tough day at work today.  No matter what I do, it seems as if I can't get anything accomplished.  I was recently diagnosed with Adult ADD.  After I had my boys, my world sorta fell apart.  I think when you have difficulty with concentration, organization, and procrastination, you learn ways to compensate in order to get anything done.  For nearly 37 years, I was only responsible for myself, and I always felt like I was barely keeping my head above water.

I had my boys at 32 weeks gestation, a week after we moved into our new home.  Three of the seven days before the boys were born, I was on modified bed rest.  Needless to say, I was not able to get much unpacked and organized before they got here.  Then, I went to the NICU everyday for 3 weeks until we could take them home.  Maternity leave lasted until early February.  Anyone who has had children knows that the first few months are just a blur, and you're running on adrenaline.  Oh yeah, and I was breastfeeding, which meant pumping every 2-3 hours, day and night, and washing all the supplies & bottles by hand.

Two newborns use a lot of bottles.

That room in the basement  (*squirrel*)..... you know, the one that is supposed to be my office..... got the majority of the boxes that we didn't know what to do with when we moved.  Now, over two years later, the boxes are still sitting there, untouched.  This just can't continue, but I'm not really sure what it will take for me to make the room useable.

I've been reading some books on ADD, and in one of the books, the authors recommend getting assistance from friends & family, and at times, professionals, in order to improve your organization.  I'd love to do that, but really, I can barely get off the couch, how am I truly going to be able to arrange and take advantage of the assistance I could get from my "natural supports."  I've become sarcastic & inflexible.  Everything is such a struggle.  Depression doesn't help.  Grrrr......